welp, it's official. i'm a blogger. to be quite honest, i never thought this day would come. i keep telling myself i'm doing this because i'm bored (which isn't a lie.) but the more i think about it, the more i realize that i'm not just doing it out of boredom. i, Karah, am writing my life on the internet because... (drum roll, please)
i'm not an open person! ::the crowd goes wild::
i've never been what you would call the social butterfly. i've always been kind of awkward and off kilter. i don't draw attention to myself. i'd be perfectly content going throughout my life with the least amount of human contact as possible. the truth is, i'm lonely down here in Georgia, and while i'd love to have another personality that was open and bubbly and free, that's just not me.
now, i know what you're thinking. "man, she's like...one of those introverted, emo types. wah wah wahhhh."
that's not the case.
i do, in fact, very much enjoy my life. i like to laugh, i love music, and i love being outside. and i love being with this guy:
world, meet bigses. his given name is john, but you will rarely hear me call him that. most of the time i call him dear. and bigs is my nickname for him because, well...
everything about him is big. big hands, big feet, big head, big muscles, REALLY big smile... even his last name contains the word big. i'm completely in love with this kid. not to sound cliche or anything, but he really does put the light in my life. the best memories of my life have him in them. he's irritatingly uncomplicated, which i both love and hate. usually, when i have more thoughts on the subject, he has already added his two sentences. not that he doesn't want to talk about it, but because most of the time things for him are just that simple. he's the most resourceful person i know. one step behind macgyver if i may say so. sometimes i wish i could see the world the way he sees it. i'd like to think that our relationship is all about him teaching me to chill out.
but back to the point...
the point is, over the years since i've graduated from high school, i've lost a lot of friends because i'm not chatty and somewhat antisocial. i will freely admit that i HATE talking on the phone. i've missed weddings (melissa <3 ), some awesome nights out (cait <3), and many heart to hearts (jonathan & josh <3) just to name a few. in a way i feel like i'm robbing myself of lasting friendships.
so this is my apology to all of you. i'm so very, very sorry. and as part of rebuilding those friendships and turning over a new leaf, i invite you all into my life via the blogosphere. feel free to read and comment. i promise that i shall always update often and will make a sincere attempt to reach out more frequently.
much love to all.
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